Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Week 9 Review: My Decision Impacted The Universe, According Its Laws, Now It Has Affected My Appearance!!?

Week 9 Review

(Sorry for the two day delay. I've had at least two fans contact me asking where is the blog, lol. It's great to know I have avid readers. Thank you)

Have you ever worked really hard for something and the results were not in your favor? Leaving you drained, confused and/or depressed.  I'm proud to say I've accomplished a lot of my endeavors but I've also attempted several challenges, many in which I appeared to be an ideal candidate for but the outcome was overtly negative. In those moments of despair, I am often not able to elucidate what just happened, nevertheless, someway, somehow, the universe reveals to me unequivocally why I wasn't granted that certain opportunity. Allow me to share a few examples.

In 2008, my business was financially stable and I was in the prime state of my monthly talk show/discussion forums Wide aWoke Wednesday's. I also had several people on my team willing to put in office hours to support my visions but I didn't have the space to fully utilize their efforts. My main desire during most of that year was to expand. I passionately wanted a house. My sole intentions were to occupy the vast majority of the home so I can build and grow my business/visions. Before then, I never wanted a house. In 2006, I actually set forth to purchase my own 10,000 square foot special event center. Since that endeavor was later revealed to be impossible (at that period in my life), purchasing a home and using it as my place of business later became my only option. 

In effort towards purchasing the home, I did everything I could possibly do do and more. I attended the First Time Homer Owners Associations Classes, worked with several realtors, did all the paper work, searched for homes online and in person. I even researched some auctions for homes. To make a long story short, I never received a loan. To date, it still makes no sense to me but I was ineligible because as a business owner I didn't pay myself enough. My business had decent stats, but my personal income plainly wasn't enough. My credit score at the time was an 803/804 but that didn't matter. My situation was described by the professionals as a catch 22. I tried everything. Believe me when I say I tried everything, but no loans where offered. 

In addition to dealing with the frustration of not being able to get a loan I was also experiencing claustrophobia from my over stacked apartment. I completely out grew my one bedroom 600 square foot place. I needed a way out but I was stuck. It became a nearby unbearable situation. I felt like I was sleeping on top of office supplies. Don't get me wrong it may have looked catastrophic but I was fairly organized. I just own a lot of stuff and had them all in one place. After awhile, I learned to bare with my arrangements and continued moving forward.
A few years later, I understand why I wasn't able to get a house. Lets just say I did get the house, all of the things I accomplished in the following years would of never have never since life. I'm 100% sure that The Motown Maurice Show wouldn't have happened yet, nor would I writing you form L.A. now pursing my quest. 

When I was trying to purchase the house I literally cover everything possible detail towards that achievement yet there was some force not allowing me to get it. I am now sincerely thankful that I wasn't able to get the house or special event center. Lets say you were able to time travel and you flashed back between the years of 2006-2008. Once you arrived, you asked me if I could see myself living in L.A one day, I probably would of said "no" or provide an inclusive answer.  Now look where I am, as a result of consistently taking the initiative to be a greater and better person I am now in route to achieve bigger and greater goals. If I was bestowed with the house or center, my spirit would of been trapped and my vision would of been hindered from growing to its full potential. The beauty of it all is that I can still have that house and special event center in the very possible near future. Now that everything makes complete sense to me, I am completely thankful for the previous disappointment. 

If you understand that story, then you'll also understand my unsuccessful attempts with my recent game show auditions. Fall of 2009, while I was still in Tampa I took a train to Miami, FL and auditioned for a game show called Bank of Hollywood (at the time it was tentatively named "Chance'). Since I've been in L.A. I auditioned for two shows, Wipeout and Minute To Win It . All the audition results were negative no matter how hard I tried or strategized. Today, I'm also happy they didn't cast me and I completely understand why the universe didn't allow me to take part in it. 

Lets use Minute to Win it as an example. This week, I had a first hand experience with the show by doing some audience work. I noticed two very important key factors. The first one was stated by the show's host Guy Fieri. When arrived he greeted the audience and asked if they ever been to a game show before. Most of the crowd would cheer and say, "yes." Then he would respond by saying "That's good but this in not a game show, this is a life changing show." The other factor was how excited all the constants were responded when they won money. 

I mention these factors because they don't apply to me. In addition, all of the constants had some type of sympathetic situation in their life that normally leads to tears when spoke about it. Which results to them  bursting into joy and excitement when they was rewarded money or a prize. Thank God I don't have any sincere sympathetic situations in my life. Plus, I am not driven by money. If I was granted the opportunity I would have to fake the excitement if I won. I really can't see myself getting excited over money. I'm just not motivated by money. I don't even like playing most games to begin with (lol). Now that time has passed I understand why and I'm glad I wasn't apart of those shows.

Does this mean I'm going to stop applying for game shows? Absolutely not! I'm still open and receptive towards all opportunities. All it means is that I comprehend the message/results the universe is sending me and I'm spiritually in conjunction with the energy conspired. 

As you can see this week inspired anecdotes which revealed revelations of information about me and my quest. In another words this is a long post. 

Day 56 = Sunday, November 14, 2010
* The highlight of of today was an audition for a role on a potential television show entitled Wassup in L.A. Its about Cuban family that moved from Florida to California. There were one or two roles for non-Hispanics. I auditioned the role of the brothers friend named Allen. There was a long wait before I was called but the audition was quick and to the point. They told me to give them a lot of energy and read half of the script I was provided. I did my part and we thanked each other and I left. Looking back, I did so so. Without a doubt I'm sure I could of gave more energy for what they were looking for. I partly think they had they probably already casted that part because they asked me to read half of the script. To me the results are obvious.

The line of people waiting for their turn to audition.
* Can you believe credit card companies also call you on Sunday's. I didn't make any payments last month and two companies are anticipating payment by November 30th. One of the companies have me in a payment program and the other is willing to reduce my finance charges. That's where the pressure lies. If I don't make payment I will be taken out of the payment program. By the way don't feel sorry for me or feel bad about not sending me a donation. I'm just lodging my trails. In the end the credit card companies will be okay either way. If not by the end of the month, they will eventually get their money.

Day 57 = Monday, November 15, 2010 

* Attended a meeting to potentially volunteer for The Show Biz Expo 
* I completed and submitted article to FL Courier. Its available now, to read it click here

Day 58 = Tuesday, November 16, 2010

*I found a posting on Craig's list about a work Shop and casting directors. The information was very vague but I attended for the curiosity. Everyone who attended was also clueless. When it started, the presenter still didn't explain anything. Instead she handed out some scripts, assigned us a partner and prepared for cold reading. Myself and an Asian guy practiced and later preformed a comedy reading in front of the group. I'm not too found of my performance but from some reason it seemed like the class liked it. I received a few compliments that day and the following days ahead. For me it was good cold reading experience and but there was also a noticeable mention that day. Before I left, I exchanged information with my cold reading partner and when I told him my ultimate goal everything stopped for a moment. He looked at me a with surge of energy and said, "You look like a host." Not until a few days later did I realize the significance of what he said. I will explain in further details in the end of the post. 
Bad communication is in L.A. too. 

* I was invited to be apart of a program in which ended up becoming a horrible experienced laced with bad communication. I mentioned last week on week 8 day 50 about an invite to host a showcase. There was a host of red flags in which I should of knew better.

First after I spoke to them on Monday and they promised to call me back the next day but they never did.

When I finally I called them the following weekend we scheduled a run through the Sunday before. Note the 2nd coordinator barely new most of the important details.

When I arrived on Sunday for the run through I found out I wasn't the host and they wanted me to interviews behind the scenes. This was a surprise but I was cool either way.

Finally on the day of the event I arrived on time and was ready to go. After a couple hours they asked me when is my camera man coming? Whattt? Never did they even ask me to bring my own camera man. A subtle something was mentioned indirectly about a camera man on Sunday but no one directly asked me anything. I don't even know how they got the impression I would automatically come with my own camera man. It makes no sense.

After that, I figured I wouldn't be doing any interviews so as a team player I offered that same person and the host my services to help out in another area. After a few more minutes, that same organizer told me they had everything under control and if I want to stay its going to be $5.00. She even wanted to walk me over to the call box. Unbelievable!! Their bad communication wasted my time and  now they want to charge me a lousily $5.00 to stay. That was disrespectful but most of all it was unprofessional. I told the initial person who told me about them and the host and they were even shocked.

Trust me it didn't bother me but it taught me a lesson to be more selective. The signs vivid in the beginning and they were even more clear when I arrived. Its one of those events where performers/guests arrive early and regret it because they realize its not going to start anytime soon.

* I finished reading a book I purchased on March 29, 2010. Its called Show Runner - Producing Variety and Talk Shows for Television by Steve Clements. I originally purchased it to provide insight for the planning of the 2nd second of The Motown Maurice Show in Tampa. Most of the information I discovered on my own however, it did provide me a lot of industry knowledge I didn't know before.

Day 59 = Wednesday, November 17, 2010

* I had an in person audition for a reality show I mentioned last week. Of course I have to continue to keep it secret until further notice. I was also asked not to talk about it so that makes it double secret. No guarantees, it was unlike any other interview, I have a few regret factors...but it did go well compared to others. No more comment.

* I started reading Laws of Success by Napoleon Hill again. My sponsor for life Attorney Pamela Y. Robinson gave that book over the summer. I barely got pass the 2nd chapter because I just didn't have my mind in order to continue reading it. Now I'm reading it everywhere I go and I can barely put it down. 

 Day 60 = Thursday, November 18, 2010
* I did some audience work for the NBC show Minute to win it. As you know I didn't make the audition but sitting audience is just as great of an experience. It just so happens I attended their Christmas special. Check out the prize everyone in the audience took home with them.

Everyone one in the studio audience had to wear one of these hats and we all  took home Minute To Win It the video game by Nintendo Wii. How awesome is that? Somehow I left with three copies but some girl during my lunch break noticed my 3 copies told me she didn't have one and she wanted it for her kids. I don't believe her but I give her one anyway. One is for me and other has ready be claimed.
Not only did I get a free game but I also got paid. I made $8.00 an hour cash money and worked about 14 hours (I think I was over paid, I came home with $150.00  but I'm not complaining). It was so long because they recorded more then one show in one day and the Christmas themed games needed more time setting up. The constants also did well. The longer they lasted the more we got paid. I think the first constants won $250,000.00. 

They recorded shows for the end of this year and for 2011. Be on the look out, you might see my high top in the audience in a few shows.

  Day 61 = Friday, November 19, 2010

I wasn't on the list for the next day but I showed up anyway and managed to get in after awhile. I pulled in another 8 hours. Its really pays to be recognizable.

 Day 62  = Saturday, November 20, 2010 

* After a busy week I slowed down tremendously and decided to go where Motown Maurice has never gone before. Yup, that's right. I went in to the kitchen baked some chicken and potatoes. I did some research accompanied by my mom's guidance over the phone and it wasn't too bad for my first try. I proud of myself. I also think I'm liking this cooking thing. I always said, "I don't know how to cook but it doesn't mean I won't apply myself one day." I decided to apply myself and I like the challenge. The final results is rewarding plus it keeps me busy. I even cooked again the following day but that's a new week.

After I finished cleaning the chicken. I didn't season it enough but I know better now.
The final product. Baked chicken/potatoes and a side of avocados.

Now its time to make love.
Final thoughts   
100% Olive Oil

For those of you all that remember, I grew a beard for over 5 months before I moved to L.A. As a result, I didn't have to shave for a long time. When I finally shaved my face, it was as smooth as a babies booty.  However, that didn't last for long. Shortly afterward I started having ingrown hairs, razor bumps and an irritated  look on my face. I'm super conscious of how my face looks so I had to do some research and discovered the secrets of  100% Virgin Olive Oil. I now use it to shave, cook and moisturize my face. So far so good. I'm loving it. There are also linkages of  100% Virgin Olive Oil and people over 100 years old. For your own benefit check out these links.

Facials - http://ricebunny.xanga.com/624760557/olive-oil-sugar-scrub/

25 Alternative Uses for Olive Oil- http://curbly.com/chrisjob/posts/1799-25-alternative-uses-for-olive-oil

Since I'm suddenly on this health tip. I'm proud to say I think I'm finally done with fast food. I believe the last time I ate a McDonald's chicken sandwich was either Oct 5th or 15th. Since I've been in L.A. I randomly kept seeing or hearing horrible things about fast food. Either Dr. Oz would say something thought provoking or I would get an email featuring a picture of what chicken McNuggets are really made out of. I've seen enough. Don't get me wrong I might eat some if offered by I'm done purchasing it.

What do I look like? 

I love the basis of my life right now because for the first time I'm reading and staying consistent with it. When it comes to reading, my mind has to be completely cleared and my life has to be in order to do so. Since I've started reading again I can't stop. Which provides another reason why I'm not in a rush to start driving again. Without a car I can read on the bus, train and sometimes when I'm walking.

Speaking of a car, I'm going have to sell my 2005 Dodge Durango in Tampa. It makes no sense to keep making payments for a car that I'm not using. I wish my mom would use it but she don't lke big trucks. So, if you know anyone that needs a SUV let me know. I'll probably be home around Christmas to sell it.

Now back to reading. As I said before, I'm now reading The Laws of Success by Napoleon Hill. I'm only in the 3rd chapter but I honestly believe the author, who wrote this in 1925, who was born in 1883 and died in 1970 wrote this book about me. He must of used a time machine to secretly study me as a illustration for his book. Whatever the case is, this book sheds a lot of light on that comment "You look like a host," which was said to me this week. Note, I've been told that same comment a handful of times since I've been in L.A. I've even been told I sound like a host.

I remember when I established my production company in 2004. One of my first projects was a documentary among various other of video related projects. According to the people, I was the next Spike Lee or the next big time film director. I never really accepted those titles but that's what a lot of people saw in me at the time because of what I was doing.

Since I've been in L.A. I've been told, "You look like a host." The Laws of Success describes the power of making a decision, choosing your definite purpose and asserting self-confidence within yourself. Once you do that your definite purpose begins to physiologically and physically take form in an inward and outward appearance.

Have you ever met someone without knowing what they did for a living in advance and somehow you were able to sense that they was an attorney, a doctor or a muslin? If you knew what they were in advance its because the choice they made is not cultivating outward. This is some powerful stuff. As I'm writing it could very well be possible that Napoleon Hill and I are the same person, hmmm. I might be him reincarnated Moreover, I'm very glad to know that my definite purpose and desires is starting to take an outward form and now its just a matter of time before I host again.

On Thursday, when I was lining up for Minute To Win it, one of the coordinators saw my book asked what I was reading. She responded with excitement because she loves Napoleon Hill. She later told me that's she's a life coach. Saturday night at this party I got into my zone and started to visualize myself as a life coach. I've concluded its a great department to add a host. As a late night host, I will and have to be creative about it.

As the quest continues...

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Motown Maurice


  1. It is amazing how we think we really want something so bad but the Universe just does not seem to line up at that time. I guess the Universe knows something we don't. It seems as if you had an awakening (WIDE AWOKE) to be able to look back at all failed ventures and opportunities and realize that it was not meant to be. What an amazing credit score. I find it hard to believe you were not approved for a home here, but it is like you said, there are higher forces at work for you. I am sure that score will come in handy when you purchase your home in LA. I know just the person who needs your SUV! Ah, can we talk?
    Keep LOOKING Like a talk show host! I am sure to see you soon on Late Night, the Universe says so!
    Your Stalker Fan

  2. Awesome post! I enjoyed the ride. There were some ups and downs, but I enjoyed it. Being charged $5 was too funny. I only imagined your face. lol! That book was recommended to me as well. I definitely need to get a copy. I must agree with you, one has to have a clear mind to read. I love bus rides because it allows you the extra time, just don't pass your stop. lol! I can't wait to get my hands on that book. Thanks for the tip on olive oil. I started using vitamin E, i think i'll test the olive oil. Thanks for sharing. I'm glad you were able to finally pick that book up, I know it will do you some good. I can definitely relate to your adversities, we share some of the same challenges, blessfully it only makes us strive harder and become overall better individuals. Much Love Always, Lala


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