Sunday, July 30, 2017

Week 358: Worse after Worst

Weekly Written Review 

I can't write that this was a terrible week. It was actually a good week. Got some new photos taken that will change the course of my career. Plus, I had an audition in which I'm highly anticipating a call back for. Not to mention a feature film audition that wasn't bad. I'm not sure if I'll hear back from them but I appreciate the process I established and that I allowed my self to read from the sides. On Friday I even got requested of something I didn't have to submit for. Basically I was requested because of my good work from another project.

All in all it was a good week. How things turned worse is in the ending. First of all, last week I had a talk with my landlady about bringing my stuff back into my garage space and she gave me the approval. On Saturday, I borrowed Kevin's van, unloaded my belongings into van, came home and began the process to unload into my storage. My landlady saw me and asked a weird question. She asked where did I go grocery shopping. Then she asked about paying rent. By the time I grabbed my second batch of belongings she totally flipped the script on me. All of a sudden she doesn't want me to bring my belongings back in. Moving stuff ain't easy. This was frustrating but I didn't even argue. I repeatedly said, "what ever makes you happy." At one point she wanted me to sign a contract that I wasn't going to ask her for relocation fees. I can understand that to a degree based off of what she recently went through but her completely changing her mind after I went through so much trouble to move my stuff is unacceptable. I hold no hatred in my heart but she certainly burnt a bridge with me. All I know is that A Change is Gonna Come SOON. These are certainly the last days of this kind of life. I'm also confident the purpose of this fiasco will reveal itself in due time

Sunday, July 23, 2017

* Left LuLu's early. I wasn't pleased about something that happened last night.

* Lazy sleeping day

Monday, July 24, 2017

* Actor Spot wardrobe consultation

* Pop up audition for Tru TV's Laugh show

* Tennis...

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

* Audition video sent

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

* Actor Spot photo shoot

* Zipcar

* Samsung audition

* Returned clothes to Ross

* Returned to Acting Class with Arielle

* On the way home I gave one of co-Uber passengers my card, then randomly she asked me if I ever went to UCB. I told her I actually received a scholarship with them twice. She immediately responded by saying, "I read about you on your blog." I was wowed by her response. That's crazy. This girl was from New York and has only been in LA for two months. On Facebook I later found out it was through my blog she found out about the scholarship and also got it twice. Great for her. Go blog. This inspired me to put my blog back online. About a week or more ago I took my blog off the search engines. This made me realize that even though my blog looks incomplete because of Photobucket's ridiculous policy change I should still keep it live. This blog still has the potential to inspire.

Thursday, July 27, 2017

* Audition: Morning coffee

* Basketball...YMCA

* Audition prep

Friday, July 28, 2017

* Project request...

* Audition: Feature film - Dutch

* Lunch with B

* Pool party with B attempt and fail

Saturday, July 29, 2017

* Basketball...YMCA

* Van pick up at Kevin's

* Unloading my belongings from my storage into the van.

* Attempt to bring my belongings back into my garage fail

* Tear drop...AUDIO RECORDING...sleep

As the quest continues...

The future of Late Night

Motown Maurice

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Week 357: Fasting and Obcessing

Weekly Written Review 

Everything about last week made sense this week. The reason for my 3 nights of homelessness was revealed in one meeting. My past week struggles by default made me a morning person. On Monday morning I realized I was up early. So why not attend the Acting Spot meeting I've been procrastinating for a while. I mostly missed it because auditions started to pick up and interfere with the original appointment. I missed other days because of morning laziness. I finally attended the meeting on Monday and it opened my eyes so wide I haven't been able to shut them since. To be point blank, my head shots suck. They're simply not up to par and they haven't been. I immediately scheduled a photo shoot. No more amateur head shots by friends. I'm long over due for professional head shots. This reason alone made my 3 nights of homelessness worthwhile.

Aside from my head shot revelation I decided to start a fast. I thought about fasting from my Nintendo Switch and television but I don't play it much or watch much TV. So I'm fasting from anything sexual. Which includes porn, masturbation and any form of activity. Not that I was engaged in much but its my brutal decision. They're pros and cons. The pro is that I can use built up aggression and channel it into my work ethic. This won't be easy but it's the most drastic thing I can think of right now.  The fast will be over when I get a career break through. I'll use fair judgement. While doing that I'm also obsessing with become an actor. I'm obsessing by doing simple things that I should of been doing a long time ago. As simple as watching acting Youtube clips and a daily basis. That's a game changer. Knowledge is power and talented people make good money.

Sunday, July 16, 2017

* Finish-line VO audition

Monday, July 17, 2017

* Acting Spot meeting...(Career changing)

* Storage room cleaning/organizing...donated clothes

* YMCA/lifting....

* Tennis

* First night back at my garage since last week

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

* First morning back at the garage since last week

* Audition video sent

* Storage/clothes photo prep

* Library...casting profiles upgrades...reel upgrading..actors access restoration

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

* Downtown swap meet clothes shopping...T-shirt pick up

* Free commercial workshop

* Storage room

* YMCA..lifting...

Thursday, July 20, 2017

* Basketball...YMCA...lifting

* Food 4 Less


* Linkedin grind

* Acting tips Youtube searching. I should of been doing this long time ago.

Friday, July 21, 201

* Splatoon 2 pick up

* Accountant payment for IRS

* ADR Pick ups

* Landlady talk..moving back in

* At LuLu's

Saturday, July 22, 2017

* Completed WaW photo album posting

* Trader Joe's

* The Originals

* Audition audio sent

* Lego Batman

As the quest continues...

The future of Late Night

Motown Maurice

Sunday, July 16, 2017

Week 356: 3 Nights of Homelessness

Weekly Written Review 

In 2011 and 2012 I got my first and second taste periods of homelessness. I got by decently slipping into buildings and a theater. This experience was not as graceful. This homeless experience was as authentic as it gets. During the day I was fine. Joining the YMCA was the wisest decision I made in this transition. I spent my days there. I enrolled at the YMCA Downtown LA but the one in Hollywood is where I spent my time. That location was perfect. Walking distance from Trader Joe's, my storage room, and the library. The most valuable room discovered was the Social Room. Most of the day it's empty. I noticed the schedule and I took naps there until the next yoga class. After a certain time I jumped in the Jacuzzi followed by the sauna and showered. I even started lifting weights there a little bit. I wanted to play basketball but I wasn't quite there yet mentally. Nonetheless, when the Y closed at 11pm, that's when things got difficult. I didn't have any creative sleeping ideas. I had no place to slip into this time. This time I was Straight Outta Place.

It wasn't easy. The nights are long. Most places are closed and getting comfortable in this situation is not in my nature. My first homeless night was the worst because I had on basketball shorts and a light sleeveless shirt. It got cool that night. I later learned it was simply best for me to just keep moving. I did a lot of walking. There worst thing that came out of this experience was sleep deprivation. Not knowing how long I would be in this situation I became concerned about how my eyes would look during auditions. Aside from that my spirit was strong and I wasn't discouraged. I can survive through any situation and I did overcome this one. See final thoughts below.  

Sunday, July 9, 2017

* Submitted 3 audition videos at Kevin's house

* Moved stuff out of the garage and into my storage. Thank God Kevin offered his van.

* Hanging with Kevin

Monday, July 10, 2017

* Garage-ment Day

* Prayer vigil, pizza and celebration. The city came and left. The nuance tenants are gone and the city didn't pay attention to my area.

* Said goodbye to my landlady with love

* Storage organizing...then donated clothes
* Trader Joe's

* Tennis...

* Night at LuLu's

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

* Audition: America Greetings Card. I did no lip syncing as I was instructed. Terrible!

* Audition: Multi Sclerosis related role

* I got the times mixed up with these auditions but it worked out great.

* Attempted to acquire a motel voucher. That failed!

* YMCA...

* Trader Joe's, Patio/Social Room discovery, Jacuzzi, Sauna,...

* Homeless Night One Begins 

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

~Homeless Morning~ 

* Denny's

* Nap at Shatto park. I didn't do that for long.

* Killing time at Wilshire/Vermont.

* Bus/train ride...killing more time

* YMCA/Social Room sleeping

* Storage room sleeping

~Homeless Afternoon~

* Library - New home search

* Lunch..Trader Joe's

* Started lifting weights

* YMCA Social Room nap, Jacuzzi, shower

* Homeless Night Two 

Thursday, July 13, 2017

~Homeless Morning~ 

* Rode the train until it stopped at Union Station

* Denny's...fell asleep and woke me up

* 5am back at YMCA opening...sleep in the social room until about 7:45am

* Took a nap outside the YMCA court yard

* Got a boost of energy from a random LinkedIn message

~Homeless Afternoon~

* Lifting weights

* Jacuzzi, Sauna...Steam room

* Lifting weights again

* Homeless Night Three 

Friday, July 14, 2017

~Homeless Morning~ 

* Slept on the rain until it was time to get off

* Attempted to sleep at Seoul Park in K-Town but that was unsuccessful

* Turned down a gig that tried to put me in the background of a shoot when I was promised a lead role. Turning it down ended up working completely in my favor later in the day.

* Attempted to get food at Subway but I just ended up sleeping there until they woke me up

* YMCA 5am room nap

* Storage room...

* Returned to my old garage. Picked up mail and returned to old spot. I ended up eating, napping, printing and producing an important Voice Over Audition (Code word D) while there. I got the notice at 4pm and it was due at 5pm. I completed it just after 5:30pm. If I didn't turn down the background gig from earlier I wouldn't had the opportunity to send it my work for this life changing opportunity.  

* Before I left, I said bye to my landlady and she said I could return to my stop. Hmmmm. This homeless thing may of just ended. It's not confirmed yet.

* Spoke to MaTown, Kevin and Pam on the way to Hollywood. I forgot the YMCA closes early on Friday.

* Best sleep all week at LuLu's

Saturday, July 15, 2017

* MaTown's birthday

* Audition: Pacific Source Health Plan 

* Weight lifting...

* Basketball at the YMCA. I was straight balling. In one game my team was losing and I hit 3 back to back 3 pointers and basically won us the game. The opposing team couldn't stop talking about me. All my teams one all our games.

* At LuLu's

* Splatoon..Splat-fest

* Audition video sent (Magic 8 Ball)

Final Thoughts 

It's been a while since I wrote final thoughts. Most likely the first time this year and even longer. Moreover, it doesn't take much to get into homelessness. Getting out of it on the the other hand is something serious. As each day passed I thought about fancy words I would use to convey my experience on this blog. However, by the end of the week a way out was offered to me. That totally changes my thought pattern. It's still not confirmed but God willing I'll be back in my old place next week. I could write more but I don't want to. I want to enjoy the rest of my day. I was homeless a few days ago for Pete sake. All I'm saying after being a loyal tenant for 5 & 1/2 years things never should of went this way. Oh well...maybe the reason will reveal itself soon.

As the quest continues...

The future of Late Night

Motown Maurice

Sunday, July 9, 2017

Week 355: Garage Mission Accomplished - Now is the Future

Weekly Written Review 

Breathe in.....Breathe out....This is it. This is the very last time I will be blogging in my garage. On Monday, July 10th my garage for the past 5 and 1/2 years will no longer be my garage. I'll be entering the realm of the unknown. At this very moment I'm a bit uneasy. Mainly because it's Sunday (July 9th) and I have to go borrow Kevin's van. Moving is not exciting. The process is drooling but we all have to go through it. As side from the moving, all this week I've been excited about the future. This week I existed with great new found energy. I don't recall having energy and confidence like this before. Because of the challenges ahead I've made some adjustments, such as join the YMCA. That's one of the best decisions I've made in a long time (Only second to becoming my own barber at the start of this year). It's motivated me to wake up early, play basketball and shower in the same place. I've never showered at a gym before. It's great. I did that twice this week and both times I went straight to an audition afterwards. The exercise elevates my energy and state of being while at the audition.

In approximately 24 hours I'll be a rolling stone but I truly believe this type of transition is necessary to enter into the next chapter of my quest. Last week my tone might of been a bit on the complaining side. I'm still not fond of certain things within this situation pertaining to my landlady but I believe it was suppose to happen this way. Mainly because my mission is accomplished in this garage. From my web series to my festival I got it done. It all ended in December of 2016 and since the start of this year I haven't been as productive in my space. I've been sleeping a lot. Sometimes playing my Nintendo Switch much longer than I should. To be frank, watching a bit too much porn. There I said it, I normally use code words but I'll just come out and write it. I'm not talking about long periods but just too frequent if you know what I'm saying. Some of these signs are parallel to my life after my late night show in 2010. I didn't want leave Pam's condo but when the blessing ended it was time to go. Very shortly afterwards I relocated to LA. I know the signs and after 5 & 1/2 years it's certainly time to go.

The silver-lining...the shining star of this situation started about a month ago. When I was having a depressive moment in my bed and I got a random email from Twilight Talent Agency. A few days later I had a new agent. Within a weeks time they started getting me multiple auditions. It's barely been a month now and they have been working abundantly hard for me. They're getting roles that are truly fitting to my personality and character. I'm thankful beyond repair. Wow! Thinking deeper about my current situation I have no idea of what kind of state I'd be in right now if my new agent didn't magical appear.  It's miracles like this that fortifies the existence of God.

My time is coming. I'm getting auditions that will temporarily relocate me upon booking. Just this week I had 3 auditions like that. My time is now! Yes homelessness waits but it's temporary.. As a matter of fact, this transition is purposeful. All things will reveal itself very soon. I'm patient and passionately excited about my future life ahead. Whatever state, city or county it will be in.  

Sunday, July 2, 2017

* Lazy day...

Monday, July 3, 2017 

* Best Buy/Target computer research

* LuLu's

Tuesday, July 4, 2017

* Target/Dollar store...watching Okja, The Originals & Power

Wednesday, July 5, 2017

* Extra Space Storage fail. Attempted to get my storage there but as I inquired an associate nearby stated that the storage in the size I wanted was just taken. On the other hand, this disappointment birthed a better idea in a better location.  

* Audition - Financial Literacy Game

* Two notices

* Pick up MaTown's laptop birthday gift.

* Coffee Bean computer set up

* Post Office

Thursday, July 6, 2017

* YMCA...Basketball and shower. This was my first time showering at a gym and it was great.

* Audition - Evil Things. Great response from the casting director. She said it was a great audition and that it was worthwhile way to end her day. Something like that. Hopefully my mishap on a particular form didn't mess things up.

* New storage in Hollywood.

Friday, July 7, 2017 

* Audition - Case De Flores

* and shower

* Kevin calls and offered his van for my move. I can now save a few dollars on the Zipcar rental.

* Audition preparation for tomorrow

Saturday, July 8, 2017 

* Completed 3 audition videos from Twilight.

* R&J project * Dark Patch * Play The Fulte

* All my auditions are from Twilight right now period. Twilight is putting in the work for me. I even had to turn down an audition today from LG. Not only because my plate was full but it also required golf skills. something I don't have.

As the quest continues...

The future of Late Night

Motown Maurice

Monday, July 3, 2017

Week 354: An Old Life Is Returning

Weekly Written Review 

I started this week off with a high. I was playing tennis then in between games I realized that I was hot. In the blink of a few backhand serves I had 3 big commercial auditions scheduled for the next day. I was a nice unexpected energy boost to build off of. I had a glow at least until the auditions were over. The moment they were over my spirit dropped dead. Then next day I was lifeless. That's what auditions do to you. It sucks the life out of your soul. Although each auditions only last for a few mins within that time span it takes everything out of you. Recovery may take or day or two but it sucks either way. Then came an unexpected email for Photobucket later in the week. They basically destroyed the fate of this blog. Out of nowhere they decided to prohibit the use of 3 party posting. Meaning all of the beautiful photos and videos I've been posting on the blogs almost since the beginning (2010) are gone. It's unavailable but I can make it available again if I pay about $300.00 per year. Nope. I'm not going to do it. There was a point of time I might of heavily thought about it but it's not worth it anymore. I don't invest as much in this blog anymore and perhaps it's best to keep some of that information private. I'll keep posting once a week to keep my commitment to this blog but Photobucket really messed it up. Thanks Photobucket.

The last bomb came from my landlady who basically demanded evacuation from my beloved garage. My home for the past 5 and a half years. I thought we had things figured out between us but I was wrong. I understand why it's happening. The city is involved. She wants to be cautious...sure. I know what I was getting myself into when I initially moved and when the recent drama took off earlier this year. On the other hand, I'm not fond of the options presented to me. The first one presented is to put my belongings in the side yard...Nope. Others options include living in the house with the cats and dogs. There are a lot of them too. My point of view didn't matter in the conversation. I've been invisible to the city but even invisibility can't overcome someones paranoia. As a result, I'm ending this garage chapter and I'm going to revisit the life of a rolling stone. I'm sorry there are certain things I won't tolerate.

As side form my landlady and the situation I deserve better than this. After 5 and a half years I'll be homeless again one week from now. My stuff will be back in storage and where ever I lay my Afro pick will be my home. Am I angry or frustrated you ask? I'm disappointed but if this is my next challenge bring it on. Yet I've already overcome homelessness. Why do I have to go through it again. Universe...God...almighty powers I think I deserve better. What do you think? I'm not begging. If this is my fate so be it. "I'm ready," I proclaimed that a long time ago and as recent as the past few weeks. This repeated cycle is old. If I knew how to break it I would but I got to go thought this crap once again. Who know if it will be the last time. Perhaps I can force myself into thinking positive and make myself believe that it's time go. I need to get out of my garage in perpetration for my next chapter. Perhaps I have to go through the muddy pastures once again to reach the elusive mountain top I've been seeking. I don't know. Whatever it is I can't truly explain and all I can do is just keep it moving. Oh well. Here we go again!

Sunday, June 25, 2017

* Walk and Panda Express with mentee

* Watching Power with LuLu

Monday, June 26, 2017

* Spot-lite Audition

* Tennis

* 3 notices...

Tuesday, June 27, 2017

* ABC Mouse callback

* McDonald's... I really wanted this callback but nothing...oh well. Spirit breaker.

* Pistachios audition

Wednesday, June 28, 2017

* Sleep, Switch and sleep

* A day full of low energy. Small boost from the Pistachios callback but not really

Thursday, June 29, 2017

* Audition: Smartest scale. The led me on at the end of the audition telling me they had a role for me and they'll call me. Never happened.

* Snake ADR work

* Photobucket changes everything. Blog be gone.

Friday, June 30, 2017

* Downtown YMCA guess pass...Basketball. I liked it.

* Landlady demands I evacuate my garage. I not pleased with the options she presents so it's time to prep for the return of my rolling stone life.

Saturday, July 1, 2017

* Joined the YMCA and played more basketball.

As the quest continues...

The future of Late Night

Motown Maurice

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